Speechless

I'm looking at the sky tonight
Wondering how I feel
Discusted with my guiding light
I don't know what is real
I often ponder out of fright
If these wounds would ever heal
Light is off, lost all my sight,
My vision of life concealed

No need to tell you
I am sure
You knew my feelings
Were fine and pure
Your love granted me wings
To fly and soar
But I was shot down,
Down in the war

My feet are unable
To get me to where I am now
But somehow I'd survived
Don't has me how

Our relation was a trial
Followed by an error
Now all that's left for me to do
Is to wander full of terror

My love for you was remarkable
The type I've never shown
All that's left is untracable
Now only if you'd known

My love was shown
As downsides follow
I used to think
There's no tomorrow

Living on so much isn't easy
Espcially with such fright
But without you now, my heart is empty
Like darkness with no light

I'm sorry I couldn't express myself
Like others do out loud
I've never told you that I needed you
As much as I would now

And so before
I'd never said
I love you more
The truth and yet

I'm so sorry
That I'd realized just now
How much you meant to me
Though I've never told you aloud

That I love you
More than the world
That no such fairytale
Could compete
More than I had claimed,
More than you loved me

So as I think back,
The stars I gaze upon now
I regret never having
Said those words aloud


[Published: 11.25.08]