Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Life Of A Famous (A Fahrenheit Fanfic) [1]

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How did this happen? One day I'm at home studying for an up coming exam. The next thing I know I'm on the other side of the world studying aboard with my... brother? Let me explain. My name is Naome and I have a huge tendency to grant bad luck to those around me. It's like an everyday bad habit I suppose. I warned them, my fifth family in three years that is. They insisted on keeping a daughter like me, the devil's apprentice as some say. However, I'm still surprised that the police don't suspect me of any type of murder or assasination attempts.

My first family: Let's just say my mother died the day after I was born from loss of blood. My father? Heart attack from too much stress in buisness when I was 5.

Second Family: Car accidents aren't all that suspiscious I suppose. That is, everyone in the car was badly injured except for me with only a few scratches from the broken windows. They soon died after of blood loss.
My third family, had an easier get-go. I was ditching my family barbeque for my friend's birthday, when the oven got on fire and burnt a whole load of their skin.

Now do you still think I'm lucky? Well, after failing my exam, my supervisor (that took place for my busy family) told me to study aboard in Taiwan. Where did I stay? Luckily this oh-so-smart family decided to give me up to a foster home over there until I graduate from high school and get back for university. How old am I? 19. I failed several grades due to the loss of each of my families and moving from house to house. Failing tests was also common. It took me 3 years to pass grade 10.

It's my second year of grade 12 now, and appearantly studying in Taiwan is supposed to help. Unintentionally I ended up evesdropping on my parents and supervisor. Appearantly I'm now staying with some celebrities. Fahrenheit, they called them. I seemed confused I mean why them? They are celebrities. And now... I'm here at the hotel, with them in front of me.

*Sigh* Why can't my friend be the one here. I mean she is the one obsessed over them. I wouldn't care less who I live with, I mean, everyone is bounded to be hurt one way or another.

"Welcome," the manager spoke. I rolled my eyes. 'So stinking formal' I thought. Ignoring him, I went straight up to the guys. "So, which one of your stupid parents decided to adopt me?" I asked grumpily. It's not my problem that they pulled me out of my bed for a 24 hr flight from 3 am in the morning to the next. "That would be m-" the guy on the right, Calvin I'm guessing, spoke up. Cutting him off, I slapped him hard across the face. "You don't know what you got yourself into." I mumbled before grumbling off to the gym I saw on my way there.

Skipping dinner, I didn't return to my room until late that night. Only to be greeted by a voice message on my phone. "Hey Naome, this is Calvin, my manager just told me that my parents demanded I called you each night to make sure you're okay so call me back." I sighed and called the number left on the voice message. "There I'm tired and I'm going to sleep, bye." Was all I said to him.

Why don't I bother socializing with a guy like him you ask? Because I really don't care. The more I get to know people the easier it is to hurt them, that's what I learned from the multiple families I've been to. I hopped into bed in the corner of the huge suite I was given and went to sleep.

The next day was no better. I woke up late as usual, or wanted to. A phone call came exactly at 8:00. "What now?" I spoke into the phone annoyed. "This is Jiro. Good Morning!" I sighed. Why on Earth is he so cheerful this early in the morning? "What do you want?" I shouted back, getting up from my bed. I heard a sudden knock on the door. Walking over, I heard the phone end. "What the he-" I wanted to say but the second I opened the door a body flung onto me.

"What the heck! Get off me!" I shouted as he... Jiro I think it was, slowly started to get off. "What?! Calvin told you to do something stupid for me?!" He looked shocked for a bit but nodded. "He wanted me to make sure you had breakfast." 'Why would he care.' I thought.

"And he wanted to ask whether you were okay or not because yesturday you were extremely grumpy." My eyes widened in realization. "... Yea I'm fine. It was just the sudden news. And I don't like to be around people." The last part came out as a mumble. He looked questioningly at me, probably wondering what I had just said. "Well then if you need anything just ask. I mean the four of us are brothers and you are one of us now. If you know what I mean."

I smiled for once in a long time. "Thanks. I'll... be right down for breakfast." He smiled brightly for a long time and just stood there. I'm guessing he doesn't know I meant for him to go. And it finally hit him. " Oh, oh right, yea... I'll see you down there. So we're cool right? I mean you can count on me... us I mean you know." I nodded the obvious. "Well then I'll see you down there. And remember Calvin isn't your only brother." I rolled my eyes and shut the door behind him.

Enduring the Pain

It hurts to think back
Of those times
Where you and me were friends

'Cuz along the way
We've grown much closer
Like heaven with no end.

The pain only increases
Then comes to the end
Only to have it
Repeat on again

More pain, more sorrow
But those were fine
Those were the days
Where you were mine

I should've let you go
Save all this mere regret
But I'd rather endure the pain
Than picture us never having met

My friends think I'm crazy
In love with you too much
But forget them, forget the world
I don't need them such

They tell me to let go
Move on and continue
But all that is impossible
When all I want is you

I hold you for a reason
'Cuz you should know it's true
I love you for a reason
'Cuz there's no one I want but you

I'm willing to give you everything
My life if you wish,
Anything

I'm willing to do whatever you want
As long as you are happy
One word, if you asked
I could leave for eternity

I could raise my head
And cry out loud
But I'd never recite this
To you aloud

I'd never tell you my pain
Never show you how I feel
I'd never show my sorrow to your face
Even though it's real

For you would suffer
A great deal as I
And along with your pain
I would die

I never want you hurt again
Whether big or small
If ever you get shot at,
I'll gladly take them all



[Published: 02.23.09]

Always

My perfect Romeo

One that I loved so

And to think I'd be the one

To had ever let you go

My vision of life was blurring

As were my eyes

I felt another tear trickle

And more poor to the side

I never wanted to love

I never wanted to know

But as time passed by

I never wanted to let go

So tell me what I did wrong

To make you never come back again

Tell me why we stopped

My life coming to an end

So tell me why

We crashed and burned

Driven to the point

Of no return

I never wanted to let you go

Never said good bye

So clearify my sanity

And tell me, why?

I'm sorry I caused you pain

I'm sorry I caused you sorrow

But at least tell me why

I'd still be wondering tomorrow

All I wanted

Was you in my life

Never having to let you go

Along with the tears and good byes

You made me smile

You made me cry

All the while

Claiming my heart, my soul, my life

It's over now

I should say

At least the pain

Has gone away

All the while

Replaced with more

Unlimited torture

My heart pounding sore

I'm lost again

My whole self gone

And yet still wondering

What had gone wrong

Was it you or me

Or maybe her

Maybe it would've lasted

If she wasn't there

But I would never do it,

Take her away,

I would never leave you like me

Getting duller day by day

You were my number one

And you still are

So if and when you need me

I won't be far

I'll listen, I'll talk

When you need me to

And never forget

I'm there for you

There to cheerish and care

Check all of above

And most of all

You'd always be loved




[Published: 01.19.09]

One By One

Let's bow our heads,
Make no sound,
Let these words.
Be said aloud.

Let's pretend
It's you and me,
Let's have this world
Look and see

That though we're different
And shall I say
Let's pretend
It's the last of our days

Let this world end in peace
No need to fight,
Lead us in calm,
Step to the light.

Let the young child see
There's nothing but you and me
Opposites in all ways possible
Yet no conflict,
Nothing but peace and quiet.

She sees the world for her first time
As if all was perfect
All playing carelessly
As the air flows, flying free

She smiles, giggles
Adoringly, her mother joins
As they laugh in harmony
As all could see

But she opens her eyes
Her face full of fear
She listens closely
As all was heard,
Was the painful cry
Of her mother's heart

Her dream was all but reality
The perfect world of hers destroyed
She pictures herself full of love
And yet here she lays all alone
Alone again for the countless nights

So let's pretend all was real
Between me and you
Let this world change
One by One
Show this world what is love

Let's love not hate
And laugh not cry
Let us combine
What's yours and mine

Lead the world towards its fate
Let's rid the world from all this hate
Let's work to the finish
Until it's done
Let us change the world
One by One


[Published: 01.06.09]

Lies

I thought I'd be free with you by my side
and I was
they were my happiest of my glorious days
and I'd never brought myself to hate them

But then I was blinded
couldn't see
that the pain afterwards would be so much more painful than those memories combined
Enough to wonder
were those happy moments really worth the pain at the end
and that's when I've decided to discontinue loving

At first I trusted those words you spoke so freely
but now I never want to learn to love again
instead I conclude:

All those promises you've sworn you'd kept
all those promises that never existed
promises that were never there
they all fit into my little world


of


Lies



[Published: 12.19.08]

Speechless

I'm looking at the sky tonight
Wondering how I feel
Discusted with my guiding light
I don't know what is real
I often ponder out of fright
If these wounds would ever heal
Light is off, lost all my sight,
My vision of life concealed

No need to tell you
I am sure
You knew my feelings
Were fine and pure
Your love granted me wings
To fly and soar
But I was shot down,
Down in the war

My feet are unable
To get me to where I am now
But somehow I'd survived
Don't has me how

Our relation was a trial
Followed by an error
Now all that's left for me to do
Is to wander full of terror

My love for you was remarkable
The type I've never shown
All that's left is untracable
Now only if you'd known

My love was shown
As downsides follow
I used to think
There's no tomorrow

Living on so much isn't easy
Espcially with such fright
But without you now, my heart is empty
Like darkness with no light

I'm sorry I couldn't express myself
Like others do out loud
I've never told you that I needed you
As much as I would now

And so before
I'd never said
I love you more
The truth and yet

I'm so sorry
That I'd realized just now
How much you meant to me
Though I've never told you aloud

That I love you
More than the world
That no such fairytale
Could compete
More than I had claimed,
More than you loved me

So as I think back,
The stars I gaze upon now
I regret never having
Said those words aloud


[Published: 11.25.08]

My Reality

I've always been capable
to hide of what I am not
before even considering
to give the real me a thought

I hide away the terror
the weakness and fear
only to show now,
what really isn't there

My smile's an illusion
differenced between ups and downs
because what's really there
is nothing but a frown

My smile's like a drug
it's a sin not a deed
an illegal way hiding
what I really need

When there's people around
I take them like there's no tomorrow
but when the drug runs out
it reveals my inside sorrow

From what I display,
life is nothing but good
but when it's reality
the darkness is where I stood

My fool proof disguise is day
my full personality is night
my reality is the sorrow
in which provides no light

no matter how cheerful the illusion
a quick stab with a knife,
my reality is my sorrow
in which provides no light

And no matter how strong the smile
how much it's in sight
my reality is my sorrow
that keeps me up at night


[Published: 11.11.08]