When at first I look and see
Finally know this feeling, being free
Though our past still stalks towards me
I'm enduring it until it takes me away
(until I fade away)
Doubt can't get me to where I am now
They tell me I'm getting there
But I'm only falling down
If I can let it go, it's time to let you know
It's okay, I'm doing fine without you
It's alright, these dreams no longer pain
It's just reality that kills me now
The past no longer tells me
The future I no longer see
Watch as I fall down
It's just reality that kills me now
I'm calming my fears, enduring the pain
Remembering the wounds from our past
Each tear more painful than the last
Cutting through my soul,
These broken shards of glass
Doubt can't get me to where I am now
They tell me I'm getting there
But I'm only falling down
If I can let it go, It's time to let you know
It's okay, I'm doing fine without you
It's alright, these dreams no longer pain
It's just reality that kills me now
The past no longer tells me
The future I no longer see
Watch as I fall down
It's reality that kills me now
Remembering the wounds from our past
Each tear, more painful than the last
Cutting through my soul, shards of broken glass
It's okay, I'm doing fine without you
It's alright, these dreams no longer pain
It's just reality that kills me now
The past no lonfer tells me
The future I no longer see
Watch as I cry these tears
Each one cutting me
These shards of broken glass
Written: July 4, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Concealed Hatred
Hidden from the world
I choose not to reveal
But in my tearms of needs
I choose to conceal
Conceal all that there is inside of me
My pain, My hatred, My fury
For no one would understand me
And then again, nothing would set me free
I'm trapped in my own threat
Cornered into the depths of my wounds
Even if I choose to run,
It turns back around and hits mea gain
"You're inhuman" I tell myself
A beast that hates all life on Earth
Don't get me wrong, I choose to conceal
All this hatred, my personality, it's worth
What would others think
When my thoughts hit them hard
When I show them my pain
Which will rip them apart
Even to those who are perfect
I show them their worst nightmare
The parts that only I see
The hatred living deep inside of me
Think about it again
Then tell me I am what I'm not
Because it's only what I am
I am what I'm not.
Written: October 22, 2008
(note: These poems were written more than a year ago, I just like to update them for the keepsake of it. But other than that, I hadn't developed that much knowledge on how to write decent poems back then and these are some of my earlier ones so please be aware of that.)
I choose not to reveal
But in my tearms of needs
I choose to conceal
Conceal all that there is inside of me
My pain, My hatred, My fury
For no one would understand me
And then again, nothing would set me free
I'm trapped in my own threat
Cornered into the depths of my wounds
Even if I choose to run,
It turns back around and hits mea gain
"You're inhuman" I tell myself
A beast that hates all life on Earth
Don't get me wrong, I choose to conceal
All this hatred, my personality, it's worth
What would others think
When my thoughts hit them hard
When I show them my pain
Which will rip them apart
Even to those who are perfect
I show them their worst nightmare
The parts that only I see
The hatred living deep inside of me
Think about it again
Then tell me I am what I'm not
Because it's only what I am
I am what I'm not.
Written: October 22, 2008
(note: These poems were written more than a year ago, I just like to update them for the keepsake of it. But other than that, I hadn't developed that much knowledge on how to write decent poems back then and these are some of my earlier ones so please be aware of that.)
Darkness
Sure, it's sunny outside
But it's pitch black in here,
I reach out to the distance
But no one is there
As pure and beautiful
This world may seem
It's not possible for someone like me
To exist in such a place
For there is soul in everyone
In everything of this world
Except me
I do not belong here
In other places,
Peace, calm free
I also do not belong there
For nothing can match me
For there is so much hatred
Darkness, inside of me
That no words can explain,
No senses can hear or see
Inside there is only hatred
Everything but love, peace and passion
Because I hate so much
There's nothing I could do to resist temptation
I'll spare you
Take away my life instead
The only way to free myself
From this eternal darkness
Written: October 22, 2008
But it's pitch black in here,
I reach out to the distance
But no one is there
As pure and beautiful
This world may seem
It's not possible for someone like me
To exist in such a place
For there is soul in everyone
In everything of this world
Except me
I do not belong here
In other places,
Peace, calm free
I also do not belong there
For nothing can match me
For there is so much hatred
Darkness, inside of me
That no words can explain,
No senses can hear or see
Inside there is only hatred
Everything but love, peace and passion
Because I hate so much
There's nothing I could do to resist temptation
I'll spare you
Take away my life instead
The only way to free myself
From this eternal darkness
Written: October 22, 2008
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